Why can't I feel

The sand is stalking me
I don’t want to flee from it
I can’t seem to breathe.
Since birth
Death was in my eyes
Blood on my hands.
Power is the only thing that seems to guide me.
Born with a monster
That’s just who I am.
One with the earth
One with the sand.
Alone I ask
Will I always stand?

Crushed you with the Desert Coffin.
Turning bones to dust.
What is pain?
But do not know.
Why can’t I feel, unless I kill?
That’s is the only way to fill this hole in my heart.
Where is the light?
I’m lost in the dark.
Fight it I can’t
It’s taking over
Leaving me broken.
Loneliness is the thing that feeds the anger
The Demon
The monster in me.
Taking life makes me feel alive
Refreshed if only for a time.

I will destroy everything
Since a child hood that was my only dream.
But what is this feeling
Is it love that wants me to stop the killing
And finally start the healing.
I don’t know
Nor do I have any where to go.